Murmur, Murmur, Murmur

The dictionary defines Murmur as a few things:

1. a quiet expression of an opinion or feeling

2. a half-suppressed or muttered complaint

3. a low indistinct but often continuous sound

4. a soft or gentle utterance
5. an atypical sound of the heart typically indicating a functional or structural abnormality

I went in for a yearly checkup 10 days ago.  She was listening to my heart and goes "Huh, has anyone ever told you that you have a heart murmur?"  

Umm....nope, that's a new one. 

Does that mean my heart is complaining?  Is it quietly expressing that it's been through hell and back and can't take much more?  Is it broken?  Can it be fixed?  Is it really no big deal and it’s something I can use later on to test and see if I have a good doctor? 

So many things have gone through my head and I have been alone with my brain as they've gone through tests...I did learn that I have a sister who found out she has a murmur as well...she was almost 26 and pregnant at the time...since then she hasn't had any problems. I'm probably just following in her footsteps (minus the pregnant part). I guess we'll see what happens. More than likely my heart is just weird. 

If anything, it's one more things to add to my resume.

Fun, attractive single with Ulcerative Colitis and a weird heart. 

Has a full time job and is well...pretty awesome.

Applications accepted here.
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In all seriousness it has made me stop and think about how I'm living my life.  I'm done sweating the small stuff.  I probably will still be a brat about some things.  But when I see people knowingly making dumb choices, it hurts.  So many people have so much potential.  We have a loving Heavenly Father who has given us this beautiful gift and opportunity to prove to not only Him, but also to ourselves, that we are worthy to live with Him for eternity.  I am grateful for the knowledge of the Plan of Salvation.  For all the experiences and ways that I've been given to learn and grow.  I'm not planning on dying anytime soon...but I do plan on living life a little bit more like I am.  What better way to celebrate it?

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The point of this post is not to freak anyone out.  It is to inform those who want to know what's going on in my life.  Please don't treat me any different and don't jump to a bunch of conclusions.  I will update as I go and I promise I'm fine! For reals.  Buuuuttt....if you want to use this as an excuse to go get ice cream or jamba or frozen yogurt, I wouldn't object :)